Day 112 Thinking Or Worrying About Future

Be Happy: Try to be happy at all times. When you are happy your skin glows and it shows.

However, I always remind myself that this is it {motherhood, jobless, mommy life} this is where I am & how my life is now since I quitted 'The Office" of course in future I probably will need to work [...] but hey, no 'BUT' with myself and my wild happy little dude, son-shine Adam and sometimes I took a long deep breathe LOL then only I will settle whatever his 'teenage toddler' issue is. Growing up isn't fun part eh? but I can see how to understand being a motherhood with children without helper. 

Though I am extremely tired now, I am happy? well be honestly with you that my son-shine always give me patient. Being a parenthood and need attention with your children future.  

I never knew cleaning could be so enjoyable but thinking & worrying about FUTURE...

Sometimes I wish I have more time for mommy moments till then...

Dear Pimples... If you are not going to pay rent GET OFF MY FACE! Thank you.

ain't nobody happy eh?

Happy mid-week from Malaysia.

Day 105 Unsaid Feelings

"I woke up one morning and I just knew. - Knew what? - What I was never sure of with you." 

- Summer (500 Days of Summer)

He made me 'disappointment'. Every day I woke up and I just knew, there's a future what I wanted for my small family to be happy "be responsibility" & communication with your child [...] What I was never sure of with him. He wasn't thinking about his future neither. Uncomfortable. Messy and feelings get hurt. 

So, let's myself be happy?

Day 20 A Day in the Life

I planned to be more organized this year.

So little time and wish could press "pause" buttons.

Adam has more vocabulary now and I enjoyed everything  he says because it's just too cute! Well be honest myself, mother and children are communication specially a part of whining is best moments. Sure, his more vocabulary now seem sound familiar with a yellow friend, 'minions' eh?

A second thought, my dear Adam knew and understand a words "ehhh...NO!" well mommy lesson with "Teenage Toddler" for his welcome today, he is a 3-years-old-{3}-months specially on day of 20th* 

Didn't have much time (or energy) to Blogger these days. I was too tired after mommy duty. So hectic these few days and my husband has terrible car accident SIGHS heartbreak and thank god, he is a fine except his injures from right broken shoulder and some stitch on right where his injures. Consider myself for this early year of 2016 I needed to keep my chins up no matter what goes around [...] BREATHE.

I am also trying not to hold or play my mobile nor iMac when I am 'free moment' at home especially in front of Adam.

Coloring is also put on hold because I seriously did not have the energy to do things after mommy duty.

Sorry for my boring post, will post better next time. 

Day 363 A Story of Tired Moms Part II

Remember what life was like when you were a kid? When I were a kid, unspoken, less communication, seriously my story wasn't princess fair tales. I am a oldest daughter [...] unbreakable hardly to accept from thru my childhood till 20's, no body understand my feelings. 

I wasn't daddy's little princess... and wasn't mommy's best girlfriend neither. My childhood will always remember BUT as I am now, being a mother I understand be a part of parents. Life is short and meant to be enjoyed. It's not just about work every day. STOP. What you are depends on your lazy maid. Take a vacation even for a day, or an hour. I have been thru all this 'Typical Malaysian" was lucky having a lazy maid lives with you? You never understand a part of full time motherhood. You thought all this easy from 'ZERO" to 100% perfect. 

Remember, where you are and who you are... Be yourself. Follows your own footsteps. If you're finding life a little too hard, try looking at it through the eyes of a child.

Slow Down. Laugh and Cry. Keep it Simple. Forgive. Love. Have Fun.

Day 362 A Story of Tired Moms!

I have been very busy with 'mommy duty' currently that I missed quite a lot of updates here in blogger.

I couldn't even catch up anymore from the last posted since I was working in the office. Usually get to browse in blogger for few mins in the morning over morning coffee and that's it. I never thought how much I missed my old job but really appreciate being a part of motherhood is real job for your child. 

And when I am back from 'mommy duty'  I'd be continuing my mommy's tasks. By the moment I lay on the bed, all I wanna do is close my eyes and sleep while Adam naps.

I do not know about you but I enjoy full time working mommy! Trying as best I am a American-Malaysian life stylish. Ya, I lived in states a quiet long ago I met a lovely American family, friends and weird Asian people. HA...HA...HA... experience from two different world but thankful where I lived in states and will always remember.

A few things to keep in mind to find the most happiness through motherhood and be the best mom possible. For your future, your children, their children too... Our foot steps not same from our parents. Follow your own foot steps. 

Growing up isn't the problem. But forgetting is.

Day 360. A Story of Home Mom II.

Catching up on blogger like a boss eh?

What better way than browsing my social media in the owl moment while Adam is still sleeping...

Ahhhh peaceful.... We've all been there. 

A Story of to the Lonely Mommy.

I love American family. Be awesome mom!

Day 360. A Story of Home Mom.

Getting so fed up with this one lazy ass in the 'typical malaysian' which happens to be one of my past since I was childhood have been seeing a lazy maid and annoyed outsider family brought their children are 'perfectly' fine who can letting their child stuck with a maid? Geez.

Making the same mistakes over and over again! I don't know where is  their mind flying off to. Talkie about how the a 'goody' but you needed watch your own family and stopped what you are doing specially on the mobile, and listening to your children. Most of them are less communication stand of giving some excuse or else busy on a mobile by easy-touch screen and there's super annoying in a group chat.

So irritating. So frustrating. So 'typical malaysian' 

I have been too un·speak·ing not making or accompanied by any sound.

Therefore I guess part of my 2016 exercise is to minimize errors by 'typical malaysian' Or diminish it. 

Alright. 

Where Rainbows End IV

To find someone who loves like this and to love someone like this... 

To the Lonely Mommy Part IV

Sometimes you can't explain what you see in a person. It's just the way they take you to a place where no one else can.

{sometimes...}

Where Rainbows End III

Since years, far apart each other and all she wanted him 'Be Happy' and missing him too.

To the Lonely Mommy Part III

Where Rainbows End II

"But the most beautiful things in life are not just things. They're people, places, memories and pictures. They're feelings, moments, smiles and happiness..."

To the Lonely Mommy Part II

Where she was... unexpected for all this. BUT appreciate with her precious love with Adam. Life isn't all about perfection. Sadly, she lost her good friendships. She wish there's rainbow somewhere can give her smiles again. The best relationship is the keys. Everyday, thinks of you. She wonders how are you doing. Honestly, no words to telling here. Hope you are doing well. No matter where you are, who you be with. She always be here for you. Thank you having her as good friendships. 

Where Rainbows End.

I hope you are you doing well. Thought about you while I am busy bee 'mommy' duty with little dude.

To the Lonely Mommy

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